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Monday, January 19, 2015

Prepared for the next challenge?

Well I'm seeing the pattern emerge. One off and one on. It's better than the previous every day pattern, but obviously far from my goal. Today was one of the bad days, but like I mentioned earlier. Even the bad days have gotten better. Less porn and much more resistance to urges, even if they end the same. My newest challenge starts tomorrow. I'm leaving home and going back to school for another semester. I dread the thought of being alone in my apartment. My significant other will meet me at school and then our combined resistance will be put to the test. I'm nervous. Excited for so many things, school, seeing her again, having productive uses of my time, but nervous. 

I'm working on a routine. I think that will be crucial to my success. Unstructured time and idleness are huge risks for me. I'll incorporate gospel study, academics, and gym time as main components, but obviously that will only take so much time. Breaking free will require getting out of the house (and out of her house) in the hours that remain so that boredom never has a chance to turn into bad behavior.

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