I first started viewing pornography when I was 11. Shortly after I began masturbating. Some people try to tell me that's normal. I believe it to be wrong, though I can acknowledge that it is perhaps normal. What is not normal is being addicted to those and other sexual behaviors. I am an addict. The following blog is primarily a tool to aid my fight against addiction through healthy expression and accountability.
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Saturday, January 17, 2015
Good News or Bad News?
So I'm back in the fire but still trying to assess the heat. Last night at 4:30 am, after an epic bout of sexting, I slid over the threshold and climaxed. As I woke up hours later and remembered the conversation it didn't take nearly as long for me to cave. I forgot a previously learned lesson - Get out of bed! What I'm hoping is a plus was that this was void of pornography. On the other hand, I've planned most of my recovery around avoiding porn and assuming the rest went with it. This experience raises the concern that even in a pornless world I might have a lot of work to do. As if putting myself in a pornless world wasn't hard enough....
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